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Hello doctor,
I am 18, and I desperately need help, which is why I am here. I do not even know if anyone will understand my pain or if it is important to anyone else. I want to live, but I feel trapped. I hate my life and myself. It all started when I learned about love. Now, all I crave is to love and be loved, almost obsessively. I have lost sight of the purpose of my life. I feel like a monster, both on the outside and inside. I experience hallucinations, like seeing myself running away from someone. There are countless reasons why I feel like dying, but deep down, I just want to live a normal life.
I have a wonderful family, but I do not feel close enough to anyone to share what I am going through. Yesterday, during the Christmas Eve celebration at school, I felt an overwhelming hatred towards everyone around me, including myself and the passage of time.
During my free time, my mind spirals out of control. It feels like I am living in a movie, and to escape, I watch YouTube videos until I forget about reality. But I hate this feeling of detachment. Sometimes, during classes, I feel like I am on the brink of leaving the room because all I want is to speak with a psychiatrist. This monday, we are celebrating Christmas, and I know I would not be able to pretend to be happy. I have 11 days off, and I am afraid I will reach a breaking point if I do not get help soon. I am physically exhausted and carrying so much pain. Kindly help.
Thank you.
Hello,
Welcome to icliniq.com.
I can understand your concern.
I can empathize with your current mental state, which appears to be severe depression, given your loss of interest in activities and feelings of hopelessness. It is crucial to recognize that life offers no second chances, with the first being the opportunity to seek treatment promptly. To enhance your support system, consider involving your family members. Communicate openly with them about your struggles with depression.
A proper psychiatric assessment is imperative to identify any psychotic symptoms such as delusions and hallucinations, as well as to evaluate other symptoms like self-care, functionality, sleep patterns, appetite changes, and anxiety levels. Psychometric testing and interviews are also essential to pinpoint the underlying causes of your depression.
I urge you to schedule a visit with a nearby psychiatrist as soon as possible. Seeking professional help is the first step toward finding relief.
I hope this information will help you.
Thank you.
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